It’s Strange to be Normal

Life is full of stress. Being a Schizophrenic leading a normal life, having a normal stress respose is somewhat celebrated. Sounds odd, I know. You have to remember that being stressed can have disastrous consequences. When not taking proper care of ourselves it is as though our minds take the brunt of the stress. Please understand that this is not good.

Unless you have Schizophrenia you really can not understand. It is unlike anything in this world, to be ripped from reality. It is not cool, not a game and not something to be tempted. The sad reality is that we can lose it all at any moment.

I am fortunate to have the life I do. I have been able to maintain a amazing marriage for four years. I have been able to work my up a company to become a store manager. I’ve done a lot and come a long way, through many ups and downs, from rock bottom every time.

In a turn of events after my worst episode I said enough was enough. It was different this time, my Schizophrenia had not only wrecked my life but that of my wife’s. It happened during our first year of marriage. Believe me when I say that I was determined not to let it happen again. That was three years ago. Three years I have been episode free. I took to some unconventional treatments. Alongside my normal treatments, meds and doctors, I looked into vitamin supplements. Let me tell you how this was one of the greatest decision I have ever made.

First I looked into normal vitamins, things my piss poor diet was insufficient in. Then I dug a little deeper into studies with Schizophrenia involving supplements. There is a lot of studies out there regarding this yet they are all small. Needless to say I took many chances on different ones, my wife watching me like a hawk. I am very fortunate that she did. She has pulled me back on numerous occasions from a adverse effect. In no way do I recommend any of this. You have to remember that I was lost and reaching for a better life. If you look at any of my vitamin bottles you will see that it says consult your doctor, I strongly agree that you should.

Once I reach a point where I felt I needed more of an edge, I looked into sarcosine, another good decision for me. Pretty soon I dove into Brain health vitamins. I have done a lot of research into them.

I have stumbled along the way; My wife had to pull me back from disaster time and time again. I have finally reached a point where I fell I have a shot to be great. Yet it is not a tale of success that I want you to take away from this though. Regardless of how fortunate I may seem, remember that I have gone through a lot of hardship getting here. It is strange to be normal but it is the hardship I have seen that drives me.

 

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